Sunday, June 21, 2015
Sunday
Normal day stuck to my routine but I still am feeling like I am stuck in the biggest period of limbo that I have been in. It is getting so frustrating but I must go on.
Friday, June 19, 2015
Thoughts
Yesterday was like any other Thursday, 4pm strikes and off to the therapist. It is funny when you step back and look at the big picture. You stand there and shake you head saying doesn't this poor soul realize that therapy and medication are just tools, doesn't he know that only he can make a difference, that at the end of the day his desire to change has to be great enough to want to do so.
Then you say apparently it is not because the poor bitch just jumped back on the hamster wheel. So you stand there watching run in circles for hours and days on end. Wanting to just find something to throw into the spokes to stop it and throw him off so that when he does he realizes Here's Your Sign.
But the one question you ask is if he is to do this does he have the tools to make it happen. And the answer is no, things he can not control keep stepping in like karma on red bull and slapping him around. He tries to get off the wheel, he makes some progress, then another hurdle comes along, no insurance therefore no doctors visits, no medication refills, no allergy shots, no way to go through his reevaluations from the insurance company.
So he sits at the bottom of the wheel still and quiet pondering what his next step should be and how he will make it happen.
The the shrink and therapist keep saying the same this. Build a stronger support system to help you through this. He has tried, joined a support group meets 2 a month was attending their movie night until 2 members got into a fight and it was cancelled. Lean on your friends he was told, and he laughed at that. At the beginning he tells you about The A Factor and The K Factor. The honest truth is that the The K Factor is about reliable as the weather which saddens him knowing they have been friends for over 5 years. His other friends always seem to have a reason not to be there but when he was the strong one and they reached out he was always there, he always made the time. What does stand out to him is The A Factor, the person in his life that he has known for the shortest period in time and leaves on the opposite side of the country is the one that is there for him the most. Even though they haven't met in person, they check on one another everyday. For that he will always be grateful..........
For he knows that he is not the easiest person to deal with, having traits that are hard to turn off because he uses them everyday in his career, so they come as second nature. Some say when does get into a mood or overly passionate about something its like dealing with Hurricane Sandy on Red Bull.
In the back of his mind he knows that sometimes that is true.
As his health became more of an issues and his emotions became harder to control people where jumping ship like they were on the titanic and he was the iceberg. Other people tried to tell him that if a person is truly your friend, no matter what the storm the will be there with you when it is over. I think the one positive note that he holds onto is that he knows when that does happen in his life the A Factor will still be there along side of him..............................................
Then you say apparently it is not because the poor bitch just jumped back on the hamster wheel. So you stand there watching run in circles for hours and days on end. Wanting to just find something to throw into the spokes to stop it and throw him off so that when he does he realizes Here's Your Sign.
But the one question you ask is if he is to do this does he have the tools to make it happen. And the answer is no, things he can not control keep stepping in like karma on red bull and slapping him around. He tries to get off the wheel, he makes some progress, then another hurdle comes along, no insurance therefore no doctors visits, no medication refills, no allergy shots, no way to go through his reevaluations from the insurance company.
So he sits at the bottom of the wheel still and quiet pondering what his next step should be and how he will make it happen.
The the shrink and therapist keep saying the same this. Build a stronger support system to help you through this. He has tried, joined a support group meets 2 a month was attending their movie night until 2 members got into a fight and it was cancelled. Lean on your friends he was told, and he laughed at that. At the beginning he tells you about The A Factor and The K Factor. The honest truth is that the The K Factor is about reliable as the weather which saddens him knowing they have been friends for over 5 years. His other friends always seem to have a reason not to be there but when he was the strong one and they reached out he was always there, he always made the time. What does stand out to him is The A Factor, the person in his life that he has known for the shortest period in time and leaves on the opposite side of the country is the one that is there for him the most. Even though they haven't met in person, they check on one another everyday. For that he will always be grateful..........
For he knows that he is not the easiest person to deal with, having traits that are hard to turn off because he uses them everyday in his career, so they come as second nature. Some say when does get into a mood or overly passionate about something its like dealing with Hurricane Sandy on Red Bull.
In the back of his mind he knows that sometimes that is true.
As his health became more of an issues and his emotions became harder to control people where jumping ship like they were on the titanic and he was the iceberg. Other people tried to tell him that if a person is truly your friend, no matter what the storm the will be there with you when it is over. I think the one positive note that he holds onto is that he knows when that does happen in his life the A Factor will still be there along side of him..............................................
Sunday, June 7, 2015
Sunday
So I am preparing to embark on a new medication and a new journey.
So tomorrow I am going to wade into the world of volunteerisum
Friday, June 5, 2015
Update
Went to the doctors today, got a lecture, and new medications. Lord help me something needs to give.
Tuesday, June 2, 2015
Closed for Construction
Due to the lack of support and feedback I am temporarily closing down the blog pending some minor reconstruction of ME.
Sunday, May 31, 2015
Friday, May 29, 2015
Wednesday, May 27, 2015
Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Day 8
Gained 2 lbs not feeling it.
Breakfast 10:00am
Grass Fed Bacon & Free Range Eggs
Filtered Enhanced Water
Supplements
Lunch 1:30pm
Grass Fed Roast Beef
Au Jus & Horseradish Sauce
Ciabatta Roll
Filtered Enhanced Water
Supplements
Dinner 6:00pm
Grass Fed Hamburger
Brioche Rolls
2 Ears of Corn
Monday, May 25, 2015
Negativity
I seriously think we need a new holiday called No Complainers Day. Sometimes I find it so hard to move forward with all of the negativity that just comes from family. Does it make me a bad person that I am jonesing to turn around and simply say shut the fuck up your truly harshing my mellow
Sunday, May 24, 2015
Day 7
No change in Weight.
Breakfast 10:30am
BULLETPROOF Mocha Coffee
Lunch 12:30pm
Upgraded Iceberg Salad with Vinaigrette Dressing
Dinner 6:00pm
Grass Fed Roast Beef and Sauteed Vegetables
Dinner 6:00pm
Grass Fed Roast Beef and Sauteed Vegetables
Sunday Walk
Fort Washington State Park
Today the group met at Fort Washington State Park. We were suppose to meet up at 10:00am, but I had a senior moment and could not find my car keys. Then my gps took me to the wrong side of the park. By the time I finally arrived it was 10:37am. I could not find anyone from the group so I just turned on the music and went a walking. Come to find out the group did not arrive till 11:00am so we finally crossed paths at 11:20am and I got to back track over some of the part to stay with the group. All and all it was a good time, there was a nice breeze so the sun wasnt a big factor. After the walk we sat down an had lunch and chatted under a large oak at one of the picnic tables.
I enjoyed myself today.
Saturday, May 23, 2015
Day 5
278.6lbs - No Movement
Breakfast 11:15am
BULLETPROOF Mocha Coffee
Lunch 1:45am
Cucumber Salad and Enhanced Filtered Water
Tomorrow We Try Our Hand at Making Grass Fed Hot Dogs from Scratch for the Memorial Day Holiday
Make Coconut Blueberry Ultimately Cream Panna Cotta for Dessert Tonight. The kitchen smells great I am cooking off a Grass Fed Roast and serving it with Mashed Sweet Potatoes and Sauteed' Greens.
Dinner 6:00pm
Dinner and Dessert were BULLETPROOF and Yummy
Celebrate with the K Factor
Friday, May 22, 2015
T.G.I.F. NOT
Well you can tell it is Friday, somehow family always seems to know how to kill a great mood. Its 10:50 and I haven't eaten yet because we found the need to water plants and make ice at 10:30 in the morning which is when I eat breakfast yet everyone in the house knows that WTF!!!!!!!! The lack of support in my daily life is sickening.
Thursday, May 21, 2015
Day 4
279lbs - No Change
Breakfast 9:45am
Change of Pace Strawberry Smoothie
Lunch 1:30pm
Got Lost Running Errands so for Lunch I fell of the wagon. Had 3 slices of a thin crust tomato pie with sausage without cheese and a unsweetened Ice Tea.
6:00pm
Korean Chicken with Sautéed Kale & Kimchi
Wednesday, May 20, 2015
Day 3
Allergies in high swing so I woke up with a headache this morning so I will not be doing BULLETPROOF Coffee for breakfast.
278.6lbs
Progress
Looks like a Good Start
Breakfast 10:30am
Non Coffee Vanilla Latte
8 Strawberries with 3 BULLETPROOF Cupcakes 1 Package Stevia
Orange Powerade Zero
One of the things I forgot to mention is since I started the supplements at bed time over a week ago I stopped taking all of my prescription medication. So far there as been no drastic fall out. I am still dealing with the occasional bout with the tremors but other than that my mood has been improving and alittle more stable without the medication. YAY!
Lunch 1:30pm
Changed Up on the Meal Plan
Grass Fed London Broil w/ Herbed GF Butter & A Little Horseradish Sauce
Dam is was Medium and Tender YUM
Was asked to take pictures to track my progress, so on every hump day I will be adding a new picture. Not liking the way I look in this one.
Dinner 6:00pm
BULLETPROOF Roast Beef, Brussels Sprouts, Tomato & Onion Salad
What I realized today that since I am someone that does not use alot of salt that I now need to cut back the salt content in the recipes I am using
Tuesday, May 19, 2015
Day 2
280.4lbs
Breakfast 10:30am
Non-Coffee Vanilla Latter
8 Strawberries 1 Package of Stevia
Grape Enhanced Filtered Water
Supplements
The vanilla flavoring was not strong enough for me so the next time I make it I am just going to match the other ingredients by using 2 tablespoons of pure vanilla bean powder.
Note to self pay more close attention to your expenses verses your budget. In a quest too insure I did this the right way I over spent what I had allotted for this month and now I've for to figure out how to get the car inspected.
One of my issues with my health is my memory from the lack of sleep all of these years. I am hoping once the weight comes off that that will be the final hurdle to a great nights sleep.
Lunch 1:30pm
Note to self pay more close attention to your expenses verses your budget. In a quest too insure I did this the right way I over spent what I had allotted for this month and now I've for to figure out how to get the car inspected.
One of my issues with my health is my memory from the lack of sleep all of these years. I am hoping once the weight comes off that that will be the final hurdle to a great nights sleep.
Lunch 1:30pm
Salmon Cake with Lemon Tomato Rice
Fruit Enhanced Water
Supplements
Dinner 7:00pm
Behind Schedule
Baked Salmon, Sweet Potato w/ Herbed GF Butter,
Ginger & Turmeric Broccoli
Great dinner but kitchen was way to HOT!
Monday Recap
Thru the course of day one my beverage of chose was either filter water, powerade zero or enhanced flavored filtered water which can contain 0-10 calories.
Toward the end of the night I did find myself wanting a snack but since I am following the 2 hour rule I went without. No food 2 hours before bed.
Since the cupcakes yielded more than they are suppose to I am using those as desert the next few days before I make a new desert
Monday, May 18, 2015
And We Are Off
First Official Weigh In:
282.2lbs
It is Monday, May 18th which marks the start of my journey. Unfortunately even though I am starting to sleep better with the heat and my allergies its becoming a challenge.
Breakfast 10:30am
1 Cup BULLTERPROOF Coffee
If your French Pressing the Coffee make sure you make enough to give you a full 8oz.
8 Strawberries with 1 Packet Stevia
Supplements
Collagelatin has not arrived yet so I am going to bake off the cupcakes and start those for desert. I also to run for more avocados so that I can make a salad later.
Lunch 1:30pm
Upgraded Iceberg Salad with BULLETPROOF Ranch Dressing
BULLETPROOF Meatballs
Sorry did not have time to make them look pretty but they were quite tasty.
Dinner 6:00pm
Upgraded Iceberg Salad with Avocado Dressing and BULLETPROOF Stew
BULLETPROOF Cupcakes for Dessert.
End Day 1
Sunday, May 17, 2015
Can You Smell Whats Cooking
The kitchen smells great and I still have a few more things to put away. Who's coming over and helping with dishes. Don't worry I will feed you for your time.
What's Cooking Sunday
BULLETPROOF Pulled Something
First meal in the slow cooker, kitchen smells nice. I have hit a snack with 2 of the recipes in trying to find liquid forms of a sweetener. So I am off going grocery store hoping to see what I can find. If I come up empty I will require a different approach to the recipes stay tuned.
Have not found what I needed from the store. The Pulled Pork is still slow cooking. I have done the one pot soup, stew, and meatballs. I cut up the celery and cumber slices for snacks. So we are rolling along with prep for my Monday kick off.
Have not found what I needed from the store. The Pulled Pork is still slow cooking. I have done the one pot soup, stew, and meatballs. I cut up the celery and cumber slices for snacks. So we are rolling along with prep for my Monday kick off.
Saturday, May 16, 2015
Saturday
List of Things Made
Upgraded Guacamole
Avocado Dressing
Ranch Dressing
Herb Grass Fed Butter Spread
Shredded Carrots
Sliced Carrots
Carrot Sticks
Managing Change
Change to some is looked at as an opportunity while change to others is not always a welcome thing. How you define the change and manage it is the key.
Since I decided to move forward in small steps I made the following changes to my eating habits.
I change out the vegetable spray for coconut oil spray which I purchased from Trader Joe's because it was the cheapest there.
I had early on changed out the butter for Earth Balance Organic Whipped Buttery Spread. Today I switched that out for Earth Balance Coconut Spread. Coconut products are just starting to hit the main stream stores so they can be kind of pricey. So find the stores in your area that carry what your looking for and then comparison shop. Some products are cheaper when you purchase them on line if you can find a site that doesn't bury you with shipping and handling.
When you go thru the recipe read the direction before you purchase the ingredients so you insure you get the right form of that ingredient.
For instance Full Fat Coconut Milk, I spent a great deal of time scouring the dairy section along with where they keep the shelf stable products only to find out that this particular form of coconut milk comes in a can and is found in the aisle where they keep the goya products or in the international aisle.
Friday, May 15, 2015
Secondary Goal
As you have already noticed my favorite color is purple. For some odd reason I have always wanted a purple suit. When I found out one of my closest friends was getting married like some I went shopping for a new suit on line to try and save money. When looking at sizes like an idiot I thought since I currently wear a 3xl that I could order the suit in a 3xl. Once it arrived I realized that the suit would not fit me. Now knowing the suit only cost me $69.99 I did not want to return it. So this is now my secondary goal. To fit into this suit by my 46th birthday which is on October 16th.
A Confession
I must confess that I am quite concerned about starting my journey. I have in the past like some ventured down this path before without results. But I guess its true what they say the diet is only as good as the persons will power that is on it. And since I have nothing but time on my hands I do believe I want and need to make this happen.
Trying Something New
Friday Dinner
Salmon Cakes W/
Lemon Tomato Rice
Tasted Better then it Looks
The Salmon Cakes Cracked Under Pressure lol
Friday Recap
You Can Not Take It With You
Today was my last shopping day for the next week. I have everything I need to get started. My total investment to date has been $864.76. Yes I spent money on things I did not specifically need for the diet but there were things I wanted to keep me organized and make it easier to move forward. We will not know if the investment was worth it until Monday, June 1st, 2015.
Time to Try Some Recipes
Testing Day in The Journey Kitchen
Today we are going to start working with recipes to get an early jump start on the beginning of the diet. I am going to make:
BULLETPROOF Guacamole Dressing
BULLETPROOF Upgraded Guacamole
Moved to Saturday because of weather forecast.
Moved to Saturday because of weather forecast.
Then off to do some more shopping, Trader Joe's, Whole Foods, Produce Junction, and Shoprite
A Better Nights Sleep
Last night I found myself sleeping more soundly. I awoke fewer times then normal and was able to use the winx machine without the chinstrap. All and all my sleep is starting to improve and I am falling asleep faster. YAY!
Friday, May 15th
The BULLETPROOF Sleep Induction Mat
A stimulating relaxation tool to induce faster, deeper sleep. (+)
Reported Benefits:
Reported Benefits:
Thursday, May 14, 2015
Step Five
Review Your Progress
Check on Whats Arrived
Go through your shopping list for Produce Junction & Trader Joe's
Make sure your organized and ready to go
Finish all of your shopping Saturday
Start cooking more difficult meals on Sunday
Sunday get all of the cheating out because that is your last day
Step Three
The BULLETPROOF Diet Book
Top 10 Supplements You Should Be Taking
Supplement Schedule
The BULLETPROOF Road Map
The BULLETPROOF Shopping Guide
Your Shopping Needs
The BULLETPROOF 2 Week Meal Plan
Your 2 Week Menu Plan
The BULLETPROOF Recipe Appendix
Product Order Sheet
Diet Expense Log
Weight Tracking Log
Step Two
Using The Tools At Hand
Before I start out on my new journey I wanted to ensure I had everything I needed to begin.
Using existing tools from The BULLETPROOF Diet and creating others thru Office. I put together a binder to help me get started on my journey and a tool to use along the way.
Step One
Research
After talking with the K Factor about what he was doing I decided to do my own research about The BULLETPROOF DIET. First I purchased Nook version of the book off the Barnes and Noble website. As I read the book I began taking notes and writing down my thoughts.
As you go thru the book Dave gives you a lot of useful information to use. Knowing that my memory is not what it used to be. I started to make up little cheat sheets to help me along my journey.
The A Factor
The A Factor
They say when you depart on a new journey that it is always good to know where your true north lye's. As of yet I am not exactly shore where my true north is. But I will always know where my true west is. To find it all I need to do is look at the A Factor. I have know the A Factor quite awhile. Having such a person in ones life can be a great experience. The A Factor is a man of a million and one things going on in any one given day. He is grounded, determined and driven. Yet he still finds the time in practically everyday to check on me. For that I will always be honored and grateful. It is for this reason that I am glad he will be with me on my new journey. When I told the A Factor what I was about to do his only response was I am here to support you, let me know what it is that you need from me.
That in itself was a great gift to be given.
I will always be grateful to have the A Factor as part of my life.
Thank You WCW.
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